Read a really scary fact on the net the other day that's been bothering me. It would only take an extra 80 calories every day for 5 years to put on 3 stone. That's a biscuit. Or maybe 4 buscuits twice a week, that's hardly a blow out is it? And yet over an extended period of time it really adds up. I find it terrifying that it is that easy to put weight on, for me it really puts it in perspective how modern food and living - even without an eating disorder - make staying a heathly weight a real challenge. The current obeseity epidemic is really no surprise if you look at this kind of figure, or even just the nutritional values in the average sandwich you might pick up for lunch for town - you don't even need biscuits to add an extra 80 calories to your daily intake.

I also read recently that a 20 year old male had died of malnutrition after refusing to eat anything but white bread, chips and occasionally baked beans. Sign of an era I think.

The counsillor still hasn't rang me back and I did a food shop today so I will have food rotting if I go on the CD before the weekend. Ho hum. Feeling upbeat though, it was a gorgeous sunny day today which always makes me feel positive (who doesn't love the sun?), and I bought the entire shop out of fruit (well, almost), so I'll be eating well this week if not just 420 calories a day (the CD). I made the most delicious (and healthy) pasta bolognaise for dinner tonight for me and man, I am a good girlfriend (see my halo!). I do love cooking.

On a different note I'm not sure about the season's fashions (I love clothes and clothes shopping though I wouldn't say I follow trends religiously, it's impossible for a start when you live about 3000 miles from decent shops for so much of the year). I loved looking through magasines today at the Oscar dresses. I'm so lucky that the man supports and understands my love of clothes - men should understand that a woman who loves clothes is a woman who loves to make herself look gorgeous - everyone's a winner.

Apparently I've been such a good girl today I'm getting oral sex to send me off to sleep tonight - it is such a reliable method of making me go to sleep that the man has to be careful of doing it at any other time of day or my sleep pattern gets all confused!

I'm looking forward to the size zero programme on tv tomorrow night, I think it should be interesting.